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Put your slippers on instead.... [22 Feb 2009|01:14pm]
is anyone still on lj?
cause if so it would be nice to know
i keep saying ive come back to lj...then i dont post for another 5 months
this time im serious
ill come back
if anyone actually responds to this sad attempt for attention.
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the lows are so extreme...that the good seems fucking cheap [27 May 2008|03:53pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

well lets do a quick run down of what has been missed over the past 2 years being away from lj.....
1.brittany and i have now been together for 1 year and 2 months +
2.we live in cleveland heights right by coventry road
3. i work at progressive
4.i finally left spencers (see above)
5.we have a fish named jenny...who is a monster but our baby
6.went to boston to see piebalds last show (SAD face)
7.i dont play poker really anymore...i try...but its just not working so i play like once a month or so

thats about all that has been missed over the past 2 years
time has been going by really quick...and i am sore and achy all the time
that = me being old

i hate being old

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aw i miss live journal [25 May 2008|09:57pm]
bitches....guess whos back?

this time im for real when i say ill start posting again

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so i cry and i pray..and i beg... [13 Mar 2007|01:50am]
[ mood | chipper ]

all i need to do...is make it through this week
just make it to sunday night
and allllllllllllllllllllllllllllll will be excellent

i work 1-9...tuesday/wedesnday/thursday...
off friday
work 1-9 saturday
and 10-6 sunday

then some freedom with of montreal on that monday
and meghans grad/birthday party on that friday
and a 9-1 on saturday

im eating blueberries...and strawberries right now
being awake
watched garden state tonight
it was once again...excellent for like the 1,000th time

that movie does not get ld to me at all

i need to see jeremy


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whats the difference between me and you? [12 Mar 2007|11:10am]
its not that im too big to listen to the rumors
its just that im just too damn big to pay attention to them

keep talking your shit and you're bound to get fucked up

ok well the past week has been excellent
work flew by last week
been hanging out with brittany while shes up here
its good
we went to kent with mikey p, kara, john (his bro)
went to tims house then to kari's
quality time

tim is one funny guy...just nuts
i planned on going gambling...like to seneca but never made it out there
went and played at the kirtland grange...which is redone...and its look cool as hell

when i left there...i called cass...and it was odd
cause she picks up "i was just think about you *explective deleted*"
so that was amusing
since shes a million miles away in pittsburgh
and can be like "damn...im thinking about that person...ooo look they are calling"

um...so went to steak and shake last night with matt and soph, hillary, and mike and kara

good time...talked about popping pills and random stuff
think im watching a movie tonight with hills
thats gonna be about it

gotta work 1-9
so this is the comeback to live journal

so...this time its gonna be awesome

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There is this rumor... [09 Feb 2006|03:17am]
uh oh...
dun dun dun

epo's back to live journal

o shit o shit

*dance party*

im cockier than ever bitches

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dont call it a comeback [03 Aug 2005|01:59am]
holy shit..im back
a lot has changed...
but i guess its almost the same as it was when i left lj

someone dear to me is dying..
and thats my story

i am more of a home person now...i love fairport

but someone call me sometime please

-if you walk away i will walk away-

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[26 May 2005|02:09pm]

go there...and listen to both songs all the way through
it will get them on warped tour

this akward silence
is phenominal

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on rocks i dreamt of where we would step.... [26 May 2005|01:33am]
back from new york...
a litle wiser...and better off i think

new york..changes your life...
being with your best friends for two days in a car...and experiencing like almost the best concert of your life....
(i still think Fob/motion city/ reunion show is the best ever for me)
well we left at midnight on monday
after me and mike ran to megans to drop her off some roses...cause she was being all sickie and stuff
and she gave us drinks/food
so very fair trade

though i think we were both trying to surprise the other with gifts...

so we got tim...and left
took some fucked up way of getting out of ohio...mike thought it was awesome or something
ended up in some small villages going 60
i dunno how...or where we were
but it sucked

so we finally stopped at a rest stop in pa and stuff...
hicks galore everywhere
we never noticed this many hicks going out last time
this time it just sucked....
it also took forever this time

3 stops
2.rest stop
cops in PA are gay
thats all ill say
86 in a 65 is normal for 3 in the fucking morning
fuck them

so onto new york...

well before new york...we drive through new jersey...and that was backed up...and being all gay
tim drove...which was funny
he maneuvered his way around traffic...then cut across 4 lanes of rush hour traffic so mike could pee
i was pissing in the bottles like 6 times during this whole trip
sorta sick...but o well

so we got to new york...like 10:15
and found the hotel finally...
it took forever cause its down some one way streets that like intersect and stuff i dunno...
left our car there...
and started walking
we were in china town...
we went to greenwhich village
which is like the college town...
it was fun
had some hot dogs and stuff...took pictures
lots of hot gals...and lots of dogs...and i dont mean ugly chicks
i mean dogs as in RUFF

lots of them

then we took the subway to times square...
and walked to central park

took more pictures of bums
talked to jillybopeep on the phone
and megan
i started calling everyone..and being like "hey whatcha up to? o really? well..yeah im not up to much either...just hanging out in central park! LOL!"
we are so stupid

then we finally made it back to the hotel and checked in
layed down...
mike and tim slept
i drank...then went walking around china town...
bought a bunch of little things for everyone

it was interesting hearing them tell prices...
like 1 for 5...2 for 7...3 for 6

then we took the subway to the show
holy shit...
ok theres no smoking inside of public places and all...but its freaky to have a show...and not be able to smoke
o well
mars black was funny this time...and really on
got a good reception as well

then holy shit

the mother fucking faint
wow..the lights...and the sound was fucking awesome
and the bass drum seemed like it was going to gave in your ear drums
it was phenominal
tim danced like a mad man
mike and me stood there and knodded our heads
they played for like an hour and 10 minutes
never letting up once
they just made everyone go nuts

they are the best live performance ive seen
then conor oberst and bright eyes came up
he played all the songs off of digital ash...
and no one there liked them
he played them great..but everyone was like "play your old stuff"
and hes like "hey fuck you...thanks for clapping..yah...whatever"
he was pissed...and drunk
and kept drinking

he made fans clap by telling them to
he said phrases about random things that made no sense
he said he wouldnt show his balls cause its a family show
then his next thing he said was "i wrote this next song while i was going a key line of coke"
great stuff
i love him
and he was super cute this time...his hair is so long

welp he played...and didnt wanna come out for the encore but did

he played n o'harra...and lover i dont have to love

so i was happy..he was great just no one in nyc likes the new stuff i guess

so we walked back to the hotel...mike went right to bed
tim watched tv...
while i was drinking myself into a stooper

then we woke up...headed to coney island
had some coney island hot dogs from the world famous nathans place

then we started headed back to fairport

well...we got off track like 5 times
and ended up going south..then too far north...then back down
then west

it sucked...but o well
we made it back

took like 8 and a half hours

i slept while tim and mike drove

but we made it

went to dollar bowling to see megan/julie/and everyone else

it was fun
i gave sandi her new sunglasses

and then people other gifts

and then me and tim came home
im so glad to be here
and back home

i love fairport...
i really do
the big city scares me....

Gold teeth and a curse for this town were all in my mouth.
Only, i don't know how they got out, dear.
Turn me back into the pet that i was when we met.
I was happier then with no mind-set----

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[25 May 2005|01:00am]
im in new york
more of an update later
today has been interesting...as the last few days have been also
a big update when i get home at like 9pm tonight probably...
saw bright eyes and the faint

good times

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this is the truth i've found...theres beauty in her i havent seen ever before.. [16 May 2005|01:42pm]
[ mood | happy ]

this is fact not fiction...for the first time in years....

the last few days have been a blur...and have been the best days in a long time

hanging out with megan/ashley and their friends

with tim and mike have been great

its summer time damnit

nights of getting home at 4am everynight

im happy where everything is at right now

bright eyes and the faint tonight...then bright eyes and faint in NYC is coming up next week

i got prom on friday

im all set except for a haircut

which will happen soon

but bright eyes tonight...

i love conor
and casual sex is it irrational?

---But there's a feeling I get when the end is loud enough
And there's a feeling I get when she smiles at me
And there's a feeling I get when I'm staying awake with you, girl

Stay awake with you
And that is all there is, and that is all I need
Someday you'll see, that is truth
The body grows tired when no sleep can mend it
And tired has chased and killed all of our friends
There's no place left in the sky for them to send us to
Just lay down and let the light come through the doors
Cover up our dreams, cover up the years
As you take, our bodies will make the raspberries grow--


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call it quits.... [12 May 2005|03:05pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

theres beauty in the breakdown

-and i dont think that i..ever loved you more, then when you turned away, when you slammed the door, when you stole the car, and drove towards mexico, and you wrote bad checks, just to fill your arm, i was young enough, i still believed in war.....-


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go ahead hold your breathe [09 May 2005|11:57pm]
Just like the sound of talk radio at two seventeen a.m.
she said "do you make moments last forever, are you the guy that they say comes with nights that never end"
and just like with every sunrise
we'll think "is this what we envisioned, always wanted"

and of course we'll tell all of our friends that we swear this never happened

that we swear this never happened

lying in your bed and to yourself waiting for the one that loves you
go ahead hold your breath
but it's useless 'cause time flies faster than singing birds as spring hatches from winter
go ahead slit your wrists

we're sold
count your blessings
take a chance here and there and you'll be alright
she always has her TV on
she needs to know the latest fashion
they say we're doing just fine
don't be sad beauty queen
you're someones daughter
don't be sad beauty queen
you're someones sister
don't cry beauty queen
one day you'll be a mother
and of course we'll tell all of our friends

-today was great
it was so nice out today

me and megan will go on thursday to get a tux for me
so yippy skippy

im actually excited to go...
its odd

-u turned your back on me...and i laughed-
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death by stereo [08 May 2005|10:43pm]
heres an update
ive have a urinary tract infection..and like bronchittis
but im feeling better

i miss sandi tuna!

work isnt the same.....

u am going to prom with karis friend megan
so that should be fun

kurt edwards is going as well

school is gay

i am gonna get a midnight shift job in the summer
so i wont see any of you probably

i am going to new york on may 24th...

bright eyes is here on the 16th...

i miss cass

no one talks to me anymore

i am a waste right now
i complain too much

and need money

-you really needed this to end-
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the sound of loneliness makes me happier [01 May 2005|05:10am]
ill just refrain from being heard
As the door bursts
A seizure
A perfect strategie
I'll surrender I promise
I'll go quietly
I'll bare my wrists
When it's time to be tied and I'll lay down quickly
Make it slow and painful as the pleasure lasts
Breathing dusty air as I cough and I gasp
I'm left here for dead and dying
On this dirty basement floor

ive changed
and its for the better

sure its been a short time...
but i quit cards
and i wanna be able to stop playing cards until my 21st birthday
so yes...thats mean...
i wont pick up another deck of cards until then

when i get called on sunday...or saturday...or friday night
i will be around...and not just in a basement playing cards

i also am quitting smoking
surprise surprise....

im done

im gonna start working straight midnights somewhere in the summer

rob geer...you're not worth my time

thats all ill say
u kicked my car like the man u are
and i didnt kick your ass
you talk shit...and i dont beat your ass
cause its not worth it to me
so say whatever u want
but im done with you as a whole

---I don't think that things could be much worse
When will I be able to break this 3 month curse
Guess I should think of others first
Just stay away from me if you don't want to get hurt
And that's alright I'm just losing my mind

You're making plans for tomorrow
I don't think we'll make it through today

if u talked to me today...u know what i am doing in june
if u didnt...then u dont...and you'll find out then
its friends cut time...so fuck off
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just trying to recall...the way things were last fall... [21 Apr 2005|11:37pm]
there's panic on the streets of london....

today wasnt bad

i went to school for a bit...then went and got kel...she slept while i watched tv

then went with mikey p to john carroll
it was fun

we were supposed to go see some towel head speak about his religion
instead....we walked around campus

getting weird looks...and went and visited our friend liz there

then we went to the basement of the library cause we thought matt weingberg was the guy from conon's show...
but it was really an artist from south africa...

black people pictures...cute

then me and mike went to the metroparks in mayfield

we conquered the water falls...and walked like 1 mile up the water and had fun
breaking rocks/dams/and waterfalls

we are trying to ruin it all for the kids we will someday have
not together...but whatever

we went to the clave
saw pete/matt f./ eric

then headed home
and im going to sleep before midnight for the first time in forever

i am happy
today was great

and just to throw this in here
im glad i am friends with keli strand

-walking on glass-
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just die already [20 Apr 2005|01:28am]
All i wanted was to be your housewife ----

I once fell in love with you
Just because the sky turned from gray
Into blue
It was a good friday
The streets were open and empty
No more passion play
On st. Nicholas avenue
I believe in st. Nicholas
Its a different type of santa clause---

Jesus loves me
But not my wife
Not my nigger friends
Or their nigger lives
But jesus loves me
That's for sure
'Cause the bible tells me so

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night swimming...deserves a quiet night [15 Apr 2005|04:32am]
it was just one of those nights u wish didnt end...
i even slowed down on the street....hoping that it could go on for at least a little more

its all just odd
tonight seemed like nothing that happens or will happen really matters
since it'll always be the same
with everyone

so heres a song...
some might get it
I would say I'm sorry
If I thought that it would change your mind
But I know that this time
I've said too much
Been too unkind

I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try and
Laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry

Boys don't cry

I would break down at your feet
And beg forgiveness
Plead with you
But I know that
It's too late

And now there's nothing I can do

So I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to
laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry

I would tell you
That I loved you

If I thought that you would stay
But I know that it's no use
That you've already
Gone away

Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more

Now I would do most anything
To get you back by my side
But I just
Keep on laughing
Hiding the tears in my eyes

'cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry
Boys don't cry

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ripped [13 Apr 2005|09:56am]
We move like cagey tigers
We couldn't get closer than this
The way we walk
The way we talk
The way we stalk
The way we kiss
We slip through the streets
While everyone sleeps
Getting bigger and sleeker
And wider and brighter
We bite and scratch and scream all night
Let's go and throw
All the songs we know...

Into the sea
You and me
All these years and no one heard
I'll show you in spring
It's a treacherous thing
We missed you hissed the lovecats

We're so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully
Wonderfully pretty!
Oh you know that I'd do anything for you...
We should have each other to tea huh?
We should have each other with cream
Then curl up by the fire
And sleep for awhile
It's the grooviest thing
It's the perfect dream

Into the sea
You and me
All these years and no one heard
I'll show you in spring
It's a treacherous thing
We missed you hissed the lovecats

We're so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully
Wonderfully pretty!
Oh you know that I'd do anything for you...
We should have each other to dinner huh?
We should have each other with cream
Then curl up in the fire
Get up for awhile
It's the grooviest thing
It's the perfect dream

Hand in hand
Is the only way to land
And always the right way round
Not broken in pieces
Like hated little meeces...
How could we miss
Someone as dumb as this?

I love you... let's go...
Oh... solid gone...
How could we miss
Someone as dumb as this?

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It's just once something dies you can't make it live. [11 Apr 2005|08:58am]
so call it quits...or get a grip.....

its somple...it changes with the seasons....
it was vile and it was cheap

-I wish I saved up for rainy days cause they're the hardest to be dry
I got no self control
I'm always begging into telephones
I bought a little from my brother's friend, well, just to get me by
I don't trust his cut
The effect is never as high as the mark-up
I think I'll print it in the personals that I'm looking for a match
Someone to light me up, someone to burn the proof of the things that I've done
Each day there are hours I skip like a stone
I just crawl in a bag
I was prepared to live my life like somebody's shadow
but now their back is turned and i can live in the light

I know I'm lazy with the little things, I mean I never held a door
But I still loved you more than anyone since or before

You are always saying that I owe you one, well, let's consolidate this debt
Get on a payment plan, I'll pay you compliments, you can still treat me bad
But now it's easy, getting easier, to leave you and this town behind
I'll do some traveling
Once I'm gone tell all our friends you got even
I'm held like an object and then set aside
And I'm back on the shelf, I'm locked in the drawer
I'm mint in the box, but you would still sell me for cost, wouldn't you?

--I'll be anything... the cord of a parachute... the blanket on top of you...
The window you are looking through... the cord of a parachute
i'd be anything...anything but yours anymore-

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